Hahaha! Sense the sarcasm in the title :)
Let's go ahead and get things out of the way. I have been an extremely horrible blogger... a bad TpT seller... a college drop-out... and in general, I have felt a little like a failure in the professional realm. I have changed tremendously and many do not understand what is actually going on in this head of mine. I am deciding to fully embrace motherhood.
No this is not an anti-feminist post. I do not think women should have to choose between having a family and having a career. I do not think we should regress to the age in which women were viewed only as home-maker's and not appreciated in any professional realms. I fully believe that most all women are super-heroes and CAN embrace both a career and a family.
However, my career was on a fast track. It's how I've always been. Get to the end goal as quickly as possible and endure any pain along the way because the finish line is the goal. My finish line is and will probably always be seeking an administrative role within a school system. I would like to be a principal. I would like to work in the Central Office where big decisions are made. I want to be an influential leader and a positive driving force in the education of the children in my community. I am passionate about this... I am driven to help all of our children succeed... I am knowledgeable and feel that one day I will achieve these goals.
So why the intro? I will repeat the key idea.
I am deciding to fully embrace motherhood.
You're thinking "so what." I do this everyday. I am mom and I am career woman everyday. I am saying that there are certain sacrifices that would come along with reaching my "finish line" as quickly as I once thought and I am no longer willing to make those sacrifices.
So let's break it down...Piece by piece...
The horrible blogger- (Excuse #1)I began my Ed.S. in leadership. There was NO time for dilly-dally-ing on the internet.
A bad TpT seller- (Excuse #2) I can hardly keep up with regular lesson plans, grading, daily activities, laundry, mommy time, and trying to complete an Ed.S. degree... Much less, create innovative and cute new resources for others to use in there classrooms.
A college drop-out- (My Reality Check) This is when the Oh So Famous Fecal Matter HIT the Fan at a high rate of speed. I was to my breaking point. I had to decide what I wanted out of life. I was focusing on the destination and missing so much of my journey. I had a precious son who was about to turn 1 and a husband who is more than I ever could have prayed or wished for... And here I was focusing on school work. I am a type A personality. I have to be in control of everything and I was losing my grip on planning for school, working on assignments, completing performance based activities and reflecting upon them. I was so focused on this that there was hardly any time to enjoy my sweet young family.
That's when I thought about my journey. How fast my child is growing.. How my relationship with my husband had morphed into a beautiful partnership where we ebbed and flowed with each other in order to meet our goals and take care of our child. And how I was too focused on the end goal and what I had not accomplished yet to see how beautiful my current life really is.
So here I am. I have a new purpose. I want to be a mommy. I want to be able to spend as much time at home as possible with my child (soon to be children). I want to cook breakfast, lunch, and supper for them. I want to revel at their every little accomplishment and milestone.
On the flip, I need an income. We have bills, we have basic needs, and we need money. LOL
I will be using this blog not only to track my life in the classroom, but life in general. I will be attempting to supplement my income with my TeachersPayTeachers Online Store. I will vent to you about my struggles, my shortcomings, and hopefully my successes with this site. I will even advertise my products on here.
However, remember dear followers. I AM a mommy first.
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